Why I haven’t been publishing articles on my blog

I realize it’s been a couple of weeks since I published an actual article on my blog. It’s not that I haven’t wanted to write. It’s that I’ve just been using my writing time to work on my novel instead.

I admit saying “my novel” when I haven’t even finished it sounds a bit pretentious, but it is what it is. In case you didn’t know, I have dreamed of writing a book and getting it published for pretty much my entire adult life. I’m not talking just a few years. I’m talking decades.

Now that I’m thinking about it, it’s hard to believe I’m still at it after all these years, typing away on my keyboard trying to write something people might want to read. If you’d told me in my twenties that I’d still be working on this book in my forties, I might have thought that sounds kind of pathetic, but I’m going to be kind to myself and choose to see it as kind of admirable.

The truth is, for the last few years I’d pretty much given up on the novel, or at least put it on hiatus. I don’t think I’ve worked on it seriously at all for the last three years, maybe even longer. That never happened before. Weeks might go by, sometimes maybe even a few months if I was in one of my gambling phases, but inevitably, I’d always lose all my money, feel like a loser, then go back to working on my book again.

But the last few years I was so focused on eCash and writing about about the eCash project that I guess I unintentionally put the novel on hold. There was also the fact that no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t seem to figure out how my novel was supposed to end. I had some loose ideas, but nothing ever clicked or felt right. I was explaining this to my wife the other night when she made a suggestion that actually did click. I suppose that, along with the fact that eCash has been stuck in this interminable bear market, finally gave me the motivation to dust off my novel again, digitally speaking that is…